Be That Person

So, I'm sitting here in Coffee Bean..i know..shame on me. Jordan's at his shift lead meeting and i did some math homework but now my brain's hurting so i'm taking a break. I work on halloween and i was gonna wear jordan's coffee bean outfit but i can't. that would've been funny. oh well. so i'm drinking their hot chocolate. Gotta admit...not bad. Doesn't beat my zebra hot chocolate though. Anyways, let's discuss something- what should the topic be today? Let's talk about friendships. i know.."God Bruna you always talk about this shit.." Get over it! then don't read this..mmmhhmm..still reading. Apology accepted. Anyway, some of you may know my personal issues with friendships-most of you don't. Without picking on particular people let's look at the topic in a general matter. Friends. You either ahve a lot or a little. And i mean actual friends not just acquaintances. Most of you have a few close friends. How close are you? Do you know they care and respect you just as you do them? Would you bet your life that they are as loyal to you as you to them? I could've. Thank god i didn't tho. I would've been hit and run over multiple times. Regardless, with every failed relationship, including friendship, you leave with something in mind that will benefit you in the long run and mature your way of thinking. At times you could be blinded. Too much going on to appreciate the positive consequences..of course this is assuming the friendship ended badly- you know, the whole "well fuck that bitch, she's a slut anyway." Funny when people say that about someone they "loved". Is it anger? Or is it a repressed label they've embarked on you long before you were even aware? Whatever their reasoning may be, it is always amusing to see the side of a "friend" you were often blinded to. I mean anyone can see that people change according to their mood. We're all like mood rings. Given the atmosphere and attitude, any confrontation can change us from the calm blue to the enraged green. Alright- i don't know the exact color for every emotion, but you catch my drift. My point is how do you know that you KNOW your close friends? is it amount of time you were acquainted? or is it experiencing drastic mood changes? And i don't mean P.M.S-don't-talk-to-me-cuz-im-crabby mood. i mean full on i-dont-like-you-right-now-our-friendship-is-on-the-line mood. Maybe sometimes you should piss off your friends to see how they'd react. That's horrible. I take it back. I guess theres really no safe way. i thought i knew ceratain people, but when circumstances arise, its like a 180 degree turn and they become people i would never want impacting my life. yes its a sad and unfortunate event at most occurances, but overall, you're doing yourself a favor. just like everything else in life, there comes a time to do some cleaning. Cut the negative out of your life. Embrace the positive. I could be standing alone on this whole theory and experience-yet i highly doubt it. so for those of you who relate- congratulations on taking a step foward for yourself. and for those of you who don't..my condolences. haha jus kidding. if you've found yourself loyal friends- stick to it. they're still out there. And all they want is a loyal friend back. So be that person. Through the good and the bad- be that person. Even when shit hits the fan and your friendship has crumbled to mere memories- don't regret being that person because the self gratification of knowing your potential and capabilities to a successful relationship is much more satisfying. Don't ever let the fallen relationships hinder your credit for being that person- there's always someone else in need of someone like you. So with that.. go on to your daily lives and be that person.

once again this is jibberish. me writing away. without a thought as to grammar, puncutation, clarity or what not- so i apologize for all of that. and if i had time- i would go on and in more detail about this subject. but for now..this is what i have. hope you enjoyed it.